Right now I am floating between understanding who I am and deciding how I want to be. It is not a good place to be in. All I have been seeing since I started looking, since everything around us stopped, is numbness to emotions, overthinking, toxic and cycling behaviours, dissatisfaction with what I have built for myself and in myself. I see blur on a clear path and I am limping with two healthy legs. I have accepted this transition as temporary but important and that brings me a little peace. So I float through this like I am on a boat with no sailing skills, still managing to decide what port to get to.